*idunowhatimanemore*

I duno what I am anymore.
No reason to smile.
I am feeling sad.
Lonely.
I wanna be happy.
WHY LIDAT? :'(
Inside my heart, its as cloudy as the night sky tonight..
I wish it wud pour inside my heart..
let all the unhappiness in me be washed awae.. :/

*beautiful day*

I went shopping today!
Finally got my dress!
First thing: its white!
Second thing: its not short!
Its a decent n pretty dress *loves*
Today's such a beautiful day!
Oh! Me n flor saw mdm khoo at Far East.
Chatted with her..n inform her abt the release of my results.
Her reactions was so CUTE nehs! :D
Popped by Taka to visit my darling Peipei.
Miss her so muchie lahs.
Yes! Outing soon! As soon as I've got everything sorted out.

Went for tuition after watching my fav drama halfway.
So relieved that the gurl's SMART.
As in, really!
Thank God! :)
The walk home was kinda lonely.
The night breeze wus freezing COLD!
But, the night sky was gorgeous tonight.
Full of prettypretty stars!! *loves*
If only . . . . . .
*sighs*

*second post on the same day*

Hmms. Sian.
Life's boring.
*URGH!*
Minghong called me just now,
on my way to tuition.
So nice! Long time nvber tok to him.
Tuition's ok today.
At least, he didn't attempt to drive me mad.
Thank God! :)

The journey home was so lonely,
so COLD today.
Was thinking abt things.
Was thinking abt my boyfren.
*sighs*
I seem to be thinking abt him everywhere I go.
ANd everywhere seems to remind me of him :'(
*sighs*
Ya, I'm feeling sad.
I just miss my boyfren, thats all.
*sighs*

*Payday!*

Yayness.
I just got my first pay!
not alot, I know.
Hehs. Giving it to mommie for her to spend:)
I dun wanna be lyke my STUPID ******* brother!
Who f**kingly throws awae money lyke dirt, and keeps taking money from my parents.
Who f**kingly has no brains to go spend time with his bad company of chao ah bengsn ah lians.
And all they do, is to smoke lyke chimney tops all day long.
*urgh*
Can't stand it man.
*urgh*
I pity my parents.
What an useless son they haf! :(

Tml most probably goin shopping with flor!
Yayness! I'm so going to get my dress tml!
YES! no matter wat! :D
*grins*

Hmms. Hmms. I have to save up alot alot!
Save up to go music school.
Save up to buy a doggie so tt I wun be so lonely.
Save up enuff to bring my parents n my sister for a trip.
Save up to buy nicenice stuffs for boyfren.
And also, save up enuff to pamper myself:)

`I'm getting so lonely nowadays..that I haf forgotten how to smile.

*xin loves shopping!*

Heex.
Its a tiring shopping day.
I wus out since morning.
Had two tuitions.
Before going to find von @ bishan.
Wus looking for pretty dresses.
Tried on alot.
Very nice!!
If only, I had money to buy all of them.
Hehs.
Poor von.. hafta tolerate the long time I took.
Ended up I didn't buy any dresses.
sobs!!
But! I bought a new pair of white pumps!
prettypretty!

Hmms.. Oh by the way, me n von met sarah in the toilet @ Wisma.
SO cool lah.
hmms. OH! And the guys are out from tekong today!
WEE~

`falling really sick. :/

* :( *

SICK!

my fever refuses to leave me!
it likes me too much man!
SIAN!
Oh wells.
I took up my fourth student today.
TWO more nights down.
Meaning I won't be able to catch my fav drama - Let it shine.
*sobs*
How sad, right?
hmm.. I'm NOT money-crazy!
Just that, I wanna change the situation I am in.
So.. I'm not going for material needs definitely!

`i think i might be lovesick. :'( to my hubby! : We're turning one year and a month lers! :D if u still rmb lahs.. `All My Life I Prayed For Someone Like You ,


& I Thank God That I Finally Found YOU :) *huggies*

*horriblehorriblehorrible!*

I'm SICK!
ya..I know.. Not again!!
Sian-ned lahs.
Feeling so horrible.
I need hugs.
BADLY :/
*sighs*
But all I can hug, are my soft toys :(

*monday blues*

Alrights.
Its a boring monday afternoon now.
Went out early in the morn to angmokio.
And I got lost on my way home.
How clever uh?

Life's boring.
Nothing exciting is happening at all.
I can't even find boyfren.
*sighs*
Life's kinda dead for me.
I need excitements.
I need surprises!
BADLY! :/

*home sweet home finally*

I am finally home.
Have been feeling real sick since morning.
SO awful lahs.
I think I am down with stupid gastrics flu! :(
Being a tutor,
is physically taxing,
mentally draining,
braincells draining,
cash depleting.. :/

`I was really touched when you called to show your concern,
to make sure tt I didnt get wet in the rain.
My boyfren is so sweet!!
You're the best lers!! :D

*i need a REAL job!*

I seriously need a REAL JOB!
*urgh*
Hmms. I nidda be occupied!
Need sth to keep me busy.
So that my mind wun wander.
So tt I wun disturb boyfren so much.
I need a REAL JOB!!

`I am feeling small.. :/

:)

Xin went to find her hubby today.
The rain was horrible vegetable lahs.
I was drenched the moment I stepped out of the msia customs!
*sobs*
Lucky, my hubby came and picked me up soon after.
Else I wld have died of the cold.
Hmms. Didn't do anething much.
OH! I finally watch 'Night at the museum".
With my hubby summore.
*happyhappy*
Its really nice! :D
Xin loves spending time with her dear! :D

Hmms.
Today oso the day when Zester, Jiesheng and Sengpeng enter NS.
And not to forget Weiquan who is goin in tml.
All the best guys!
I think all of them will have no problem surviving ;D

`i miss my boyfren alrdy!!

*DEAD TIRED*

I LEARNT MY LESSON!
Never ever try to be so gungho..
>.< *bleahs*
I am suffering the "fruits" of my rashness.
Or rather brainlessness? :/
I am dead tired now.
Brain cells totally wiped out.
*sighs* I kinda realised that I can't work miracles.
:S *confused Xin*

Isn't this blissfully sweet?
Can we be penguins too?

*3rdJanuary2006*

Todae's school reopening fer all.
WHile I'm rotting at home.
For the rest of my friends are working.
And I'm dateless.
SHO PATHETIC.
Gosh.. Been feeling sosososo bored for the whole dae.
Seriously, I don't have the mood to work lehs.
Don't know why.
When I'm the weirdo whu thinks working is fun.
But hor.. Rotting too much can be very unhealthy.
I need a life.
*grins*

`dislikes being neglected, dislikes being taken for granted. but who am i to say anething?

*Gona say Goodbye to 2006...*

my last photo taken in year 2006 :)

Hmms. I have just reached home not long ago.
Was out with yvonne.
Doing one of my favourite activities.
KBOX:D
SOmething embarrassing happened.
:X

Yups.. THink this is the last add-on to my list of 2006 memories lers.
2006 has been a rather great year :D
Really.. I've met great friends, great people.
And, I've a great boyfren too !!
*smiles*

So long year 2006..
I'm hoping fer a even better year ahead of me :)

*READ!*

go to this link for my entry : http://bluesaway.livejournal.com

*argh..!!*

PAIN! PAIN! PAIN!
*sobs*
I'm hurting lyke shit lahs.
ARGH! for no apparent reasons...
*sobs*
I think I'm dying...
NONO! I don't wanna die before the year ends.
*sobs*
PAIN lahs.

*smiles*

This is just a post-xmas entry.
I wanted to include it in my previous entry,
but it kinda slipped my mind.
You know.. whatever happened on xmas..
wus SO familiar.
yea.. de javu again..
I really must stop sleeping so much.

BEST CHRISTMAS EVER! :D

Xin n her MOST beloved boyfren :)

I wanted to take a zi-lian pic
Duno whats that guy doing ther.

My boyfren loves acting cute more than me!
*bleahs*
Wells in fact,he's cute to me:)

RAWRRR!! *Jer tries to bite my head off*

And this is what he gets for bullying me!
People gets to see a closeup of the evil one!
*grins*

Hmms. Now for the updates.
XIN HAD THE BEST CHRISTMAS OF HER LIFE!! :)
BIGBIGSMILE!

Went over to find him early in the morning.
Went his place to slack ard.
My Jer gave me a new necklace for Xmas.
*prettypretty!*
And a star lantern too!
*SMILES*
Am really happy! :)
Gave him his gifts too.
Urms.. Don't think my gifts to him are all that fab.
*sighs*

Then I followed jer ard while he picked ppl up for church.
Service's great ! :D
I enjoyed it :)
*smiles*
Enjoyed the food, the funs n everything else.
Everyone jus made me feel so welcome n all :)
*happy*
Most importantly!!
I got to spend Xmas with my dear.
And our 1st year anni too!
I am definitely a blessed and happy gurl!! :)

Returned to Jer's plc after everything.
He fell horribly SICK!
urgh.. so feverish n all..
*heart aches*
So horrible lahs!!
And I cldn't even do anything to help!
*uselessme!*
Sobs. Wus soo worried abt him tt I cried.
And when its time for me to go home, I wus in tears again.
*sobs*
So reluctant to leave my dear alone, when he is feeling so awful.

So here I am, blogging subconsciously.
'Cause I didnt slp well ysd.
Wus worried abt him all night.
Maybe I shld go get some more slp if I can after ending off this post.
Get well soon, dear!
*prays hard*

It wusnt a lonely xmas afterall.
And my wish wus fulfilled.
Thankyou dear! I love you lots!
*huggies*

*Christmas Eve*

Yayness! Its Christmas Eve!!
*loves*
Hmms. Ysd went church fer xmas service.
Nicenicenice!! ^^
After that, went to meet the gurls in town.
Didn't do anething much.
Went pastamania to eat n crapped.
Took prettypretty neoprints.
as well as some pics with the xmas trees on the streets.
Wus very sad n guilty that I had to spoil the wonderful moment of gathering tgr.
Yes baba! we'll meet up again de! ^^

Long time nv update lers.
Hotel wrk wus horrible fer me the other day.
DON SUCKS!
Stupid arse.
And stupid me, i lost my precious necklace.
:'( sobs.
Am still feeling sad over it.
*sighs*

*second post on the same day*

Hmms. Feeling kinda emo as usual.
Emo-gurl, like what steven always says of me.
He's in KL now.
Don't think he's able to return lo.
The flooding is really bad.

Am feeling kinda neglected/abandoned/empty/lonely/unloved right now.
Online : no one fer me to crap with.
Wus abt to chat happily with kor.
But he's sending his gf back to sg.
My HP seems useless now.
No one is looking fer me;
And it seems lyke everyone else is too busy to even notice me.

Right now, a sense of loneliness engulfs my soul.
I'm feeling so empty deep dwn.
Something's missing.
*sighs*

I'm starting to think that, perhaps, some things weren't meant to stay unchanged.